My friends, I’m struggling with the changes coming in my life, but I know I have to accept them.

My oldest will be heading off to college in three months. I know this is the natural order of things. I know he’ll thrive and learn to become a productive member of society. I know this is what he wants. And I know he deserves to go off and live his life. I’m just not ready to say goodbye.

Sure, I’m not the first parent to feel this way, and I won’t be the last. And I know I’ll get used to his absence. I just needed to get my feelings out.

It’s all compounded by the uncertainly of my employment. I was hired just for this school year (and what a school year it’s been!), to cover a leave of absence.  If the teacher doesn’t come back, AND they can’t find a certified teacher to fill the vacancy, THEN they can hire me again. I’ve been down this road before, so I know that I won’t know for sure until school starts.

In the meantime, I’ll just keep doing the best job I can. I’ll be there for my students and get us all through this off-the-charts year. And then, while I look for a new job, I’ll have time to write. So, that’s the positive.

I’m not quite ready yet to face the wind and accept the changes, but I will.

What are you facing right now? Whatever it is, I’m sending you lots and lots of virtual hugs.